November 15, 2019
It has been a few days since my second infusion and I wanted to give a quick update. The infusion itself was much less intense and much easier this time around, which was a relief.
I am already noticing positive changes. My first thoughts in the morning haven’t been about how I wish I could sleep forever, how I don’t think I can get through another day, how I don’t see the point. Instead, I feel this little spark of resilience. A little flicker of hope in my chest that is beginning to fill up that hallowed out, empty space that was there before. I’m looking ahead to this week, rather than being stuck trying to figure out how to just get through the hour.
This is why I keep going with the ketamine. When I do finally get that boost, it gives me a foundation to stand on so that I can then use my other resources (therapy, help from friends/family) to continue my recovery. It doesn’t cure or end my depression, and I still have to put a lot of work into getting better. It’s a daily battle, but I am now feeling much more equipped to continue the fight. Depression had the upper hand for a while, but this double treatment of ketamine has helped level the playing field. I am glad to be back in the fight.
– Kristin
11/17/19
Kristin on Ketamine 